E has a big mouth. She won't deny it. Sometimes it gets her into trouble. Sometimes it gets me into trouble. Sometimes she just embarasses me.

One of the reasons I started this blog is so I could write about/express ideas freely. I wanted to write about whatever ocurred to me, or was bothering me. I'm now having to come to terms with actually talking face to face with people who've read the blog. I had the illusion that it could be more anonymous than it is. Now, occuasionally I have to talk with someone I've written about. With one exception I've tried not to be disparaging to anyone. Still I find it embarassing when someone I've written about brings it up to me in person.

Take last night. Anchorhead played at the 400. Three of the guys I went on my canoe trip with were there. Now, they didn't know I'd written about them. E proceeds to relate to them the contents of my blog while I'm up on stage. I can only imagine what she told them. Now, they're sending me e-mails with inside jokes about my blog. Everything indicates that they don't mind, but I find it very awkward that they know about it. I meant to invent a semi-fictional character -- a sort of alter-ego -- that would express some of my ideas. I didn't mean for people to associate it with me directly. At least, not all of the time. (I'm still preparing for the day when I meet Lee. I know it will happen.)

Now, on the other hand, Truck and I were discussing earlier in the evening how we'd managed to make some personal connections through the internet. I'm not talking about dating services, I'm talking about getting into contact with people we never would have otherwise met. Then I get home after the show last night and I have an e-mail waiting from this guy who's also from Minnesota and read my blog. He'd made a conscious decision to try to get into contact with people outside his current circle. So here is a guy who wants to make personal connections via his blog. Sometimes that's okay for me. Sometimes I just want strangers to read it.

I guess I can't have it both ways. I only hope that I don't edit my content too much because I'm worried about who is reading. Then I'll have to start another blog.